Don"t Fear Your Fear
I was on my way home with my friend sitting beside me in my school van.
It was raining that day with kids playing in the street & trees looking greener then ever.
Our van stopped to drop a little girl who lived on the outskirts of sprawling suburb.
There was not other house at the end of her garden which made her looked like she lived it at the end of the world.
On that day, it was journey welcomed.
In that whether it looked like heaven when suddenly a hell like news was drawn to my ears.
My friend just told that I need to do a class presentation tomorrow.
Suddenly I felt a drop of sweat slipping down my cheeks on a day where most of little kids were shivering due to cold.
I lied at my house it was a picnic the other day and remembering not going to school that day, sacrificing my grade as it contained some marks in the finals.
The fear of presentation continues with me till I entered university.
The speaking infront of people always hold me back and the words that were utter to me by me were this is one thing I cannot do.
I joined UBL as a phone banker in 2005 and during training every one was required to give a brief presentation regarding the products.
On the very day all of a sudden time started to fly and what seemed like a split second it was my time to give presentation.
I could feel the sweat drawing down & my ears went dark red.
The training manager who was standing beside me asked if I was alright.
To save the dignity in front of my batch mates I said yes with a very low pitch in my voice.
I was given a signal to start & I could not speak at all.
I was feeling someone I don't know.
I was given a mic a two row room because my voice couldn't reach the 2nd row and to my utter shame I was being congratulated to be 1st one in that room to use a mic.
I worked 2 years as an agent & was one of the top performers.
I long struggled for promotion trying to grasp every position I can but I guess God had other plans & I am sure He would smiled when I always wonder that this is something I would.
It was July 30, 2007 when I got my big break.
The big boss told me that he has a new assignment for me it starts tomorrow.
He wanted me to wait in his office for 5 mins till he comes back & will let me know the details of the assignment.
I said to myself "YES", no more calls for me.
No more night shifts.
No more working on Eid holidays.
He said he has chosen me over 8 candidates for this a believed I can do it was utmost perfection.
There was the biggest smile on my face I've felt in years and within the same second my smile was gone & my face was all pale with my ears red.
The sweat again started coming down.
What do you know? I was being told to train the new batch for call center.
All of a sudden I felt that time has been stopped & my pulse was missing.
At this point boss went outside the room telling me start preparing for the so called "Big Day".
The whole day I felt like it was hell for me with my friends coming to me & congratulating me.
At that point they all felt like Devils Advocate.
By no time I was wondering in my thoughts & it was 6 pm.
I went home, closed my door & felt like I was alone in the world.
I couldn't take the pressure & decided to call my boss and tell him that I wont' be able to perform this assignment as per his & department's expectation.
There was a voice that was heard within my self that if I don't do it now, I won't be able to do it for the rest of my life.
I entered the training room gathered all the strength while re-living happy moments.
I tried to sound confident & tried to act normally.
It was more then that.
when 9 people were staring at me i.
e.
18 eyes, waiting for me to give my introduction.
At this point I forgot who I was but to save my face I gathered some data from my mind which stopped working at that time & uttered few words.
I will never forget that day I stood there and made it through realizing it was not difficult at all.
In fact what made it difficult was my perception to it.
To this date I and approved trainer for customer service division & one of the trainers for call center.
Having trained approximately 500 people in more then 8 cities.
A certified trainer from the Pakistan's leading training & consulting company.
My message to all my fellows is "Nothing is impossible until you think it is.
"
It was raining that day with kids playing in the street & trees looking greener then ever.
Our van stopped to drop a little girl who lived on the outskirts of sprawling suburb.
There was not other house at the end of her garden which made her looked like she lived it at the end of the world.
On that day, it was journey welcomed.
In that whether it looked like heaven when suddenly a hell like news was drawn to my ears.
My friend just told that I need to do a class presentation tomorrow.
Suddenly I felt a drop of sweat slipping down my cheeks on a day where most of little kids were shivering due to cold.
I lied at my house it was a picnic the other day and remembering not going to school that day, sacrificing my grade as it contained some marks in the finals.
The fear of presentation continues with me till I entered university.
The speaking infront of people always hold me back and the words that were utter to me by me were this is one thing I cannot do.
I joined UBL as a phone banker in 2005 and during training every one was required to give a brief presentation regarding the products.
On the very day all of a sudden time started to fly and what seemed like a split second it was my time to give presentation.
I could feel the sweat drawing down & my ears went dark red.
The training manager who was standing beside me asked if I was alright.
To save the dignity in front of my batch mates I said yes with a very low pitch in my voice.
I was given a signal to start & I could not speak at all.
I was feeling someone I don't know.
I was given a mic a two row room because my voice couldn't reach the 2nd row and to my utter shame I was being congratulated to be 1st one in that room to use a mic.
I worked 2 years as an agent & was one of the top performers.
I long struggled for promotion trying to grasp every position I can but I guess God had other plans & I am sure He would smiled when I always wonder that this is something I would.
It was July 30, 2007 when I got my big break.
The big boss told me that he has a new assignment for me it starts tomorrow.
He wanted me to wait in his office for 5 mins till he comes back & will let me know the details of the assignment.
I said to myself "YES", no more calls for me.
No more night shifts.
No more working on Eid holidays.
He said he has chosen me over 8 candidates for this a believed I can do it was utmost perfection.
There was the biggest smile on my face I've felt in years and within the same second my smile was gone & my face was all pale with my ears red.
The sweat again started coming down.
What do you know? I was being told to train the new batch for call center.
All of a sudden I felt that time has been stopped & my pulse was missing.
At this point boss went outside the room telling me start preparing for the so called "Big Day".
The whole day I felt like it was hell for me with my friends coming to me & congratulating me.
At that point they all felt like Devils Advocate.
By no time I was wondering in my thoughts & it was 6 pm.
I went home, closed my door & felt like I was alone in the world.
I couldn't take the pressure & decided to call my boss and tell him that I wont' be able to perform this assignment as per his & department's expectation.
There was a voice that was heard within my self that if I don't do it now, I won't be able to do it for the rest of my life.
I entered the training room gathered all the strength while re-living happy moments.
I tried to sound confident & tried to act normally.
It was more then that.
when 9 people were staring at me i.
e.
18 eyes, waiting for me to give my introduction.
At this point I forgot who I was but to save my face I gathered some data from my mind which stopped working at that time & uttered few words.
I will never forget that day I stood there and made it through realizing it was not difficult at all.
In fact what made it difficult was my perception to it.
To this date I and approved trainer for customer service division & one of the trainers for call center.
Having trained approximately 500 people in more then 8 cities.
A certified trainer from the Pakistan's leading training & consulting company.
My message to all my fellows is "Nothing is impossible until you think it is.
"
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